Good Enough.

Confidence has been a life long battle for me. It's this deep rooted hatred for my body. It's a disgust for every inch of my skin. It's picking on myself. My flaws consume my thoughts. And I just feel gross.

In elementary school I was the brunt of the "fat" jokes. Whether it was at school or on the bus, I couldn't escape it. To this day, the comments haunt me.

In middle school, a boy followed me down the stairs and out to the bus, taunting loudly, "fat. fat. fat. fat" in front of everyone.

Those kids pointed out my flaws as if I didn't already see them. They called me names as if I didn't already call myself worse.

When I go to the place that I've been suppressing for all these years...it's painful. Revealing this is painful.

Picture a sweet, innocent elementary aged little girl sitting across the aisle from her crush. Filled with butterflies, she hopes he will talk to her. His best friend, whose sitting with him, asks her to stick her hands out in the aisle. She's confused but does as he asks. He proceeds to point at her tiny hands and laughs... "See, I told you she has sausage fingers."

Her crush begins to laugh. She's humiliated. But she has to sit there...right next to them...as they take turns saying awful things about her body. And when she gets off the bus...and as she's walking to her front door...she wonders if life would be better if she wasn't a part of it anymore.

I can hear those words... as if it was yesterday. Because that beautiful little girl was me.

I haven't shared that moment with anyone. Because I don't like to revisit those old memories. But I think it's necessary, in the healing process, to deal with old demons and put them behind you.

Sometimes I still struggle with accepting myself,  but I'm working on it. It's a process, and I know that one day I'll get there.

Present day me finally feels GOOD ENOUGH. Everyday I come a little bit closer to fully loving my appearance.

I wanted to share this life event with you, because I want you to know that everyone has a weakness. This is mine.

I used to be a bit damaged. But I think I'm coming pretty close to a restored version of myself.

I've learned through this experience that flaws are gorgeous. It's those flaws that separate us from being ordinary. It's those flaws that our future lover will fall completely in love with.

Do me a favor? LOVE YOUR BODY. Just the way it is... because I love you.

Be who you are. Love who you are. Live who you are.

EMBRACE the YOU right NOW. Don't change. Grow. Don't search. Create.

In this great life, YOU are what is great.

Hey, we're in this together. So, what are we waiting for? Let's ROCK IT!